3/17/2011 -- grin and bear it?

starting weight: 151.0 on 3/15 :( ...starting all over, but not givin' up.
current weight: 149.8 on 3/17 ...already making progress.
minigoal weight: 144.0
total goal weight: 110

breakfast://
oatmeal -- 195
apple slice -- 15

lunch://
eggs w/ toast and ham -- 351 (butter was 180 cals of this!!)

dinner://
soup -- 120 calories
lasagna -- 350

snacks://
banana -- 90
cookies -- 140

total:1,261

worked out 330 cals (estimated)

final total: 931

3/16/2011

i. don't. like. food.
food. don't. like. me.
so why are we constantly together? -_-

breakfast:
banana -- 110
oatmeal -- 200

lunch:
lean cuisine -- 210
fortune cookie -- 30

dinner:

tomato soup -- 180

snacks:
snack pack -- 140

veggies with light ranch -- 110
ritz crackers -- 150

total:1,130

burned 310 cals on treadmill

final total:820

3/12/2011 --- vrooo00m

current weight: 146.2
mini goal weight: 143.9

breakfast://
oatmeal -- 180

lunch://
eggs & toast -- 260
cup of milk -- 100

dinner://

snacks://
icecream -- 150

total: 690

3/11/11

breakfast://
oatmeal -- 225

lunch://
burger and fries -- 1000

dinner://
lean cuisine -- 240

snacks://
icecream -- 330
popcorn -- 220

total: 2,015

3/10/2011 --- fluctuating

current weight: 146.6
mini goal weight: 143.9

breakfast://
oatmeal w/ brown sugar and cinnamon -- 170

lunch://
turkey sandwich w/ tomato and snowpeas --185

dinner://
tomato soup -- 140

snacks://
toast w/ cinnamon -- 90
v8 juice with a little orange juice -- 80
toaster strudel -- 135

total: 800

walked 35 mins, 200 cals burned

3/9/2011 --- Oh lordie!

current weight: 146.6
mini goal weight: 143.9

breakfast://
cereal -- 150
1/2 cookie -- 35

lunch://
tuna salad sandwich -- 190
baby tomatos -- 10
pickle spear -- 5

dinner://
lean cuisine -- 220
small salad -- 50
juice -- 100

snacks://
small banana -- 60
small shake -- 150
pineapple slice -- 30
5 cookies --310
icecream -- 150
more pineapple -- 100
cereal -- 150

total: 1,720

exercise: walking 3.5mph, 206 cals, 39 mins

3/8/2011 -- I was hoping for more

current weight: 144.8
goal weight: 110.0

breakfast://
cereal -- 150
cookies -- 140

lunch://
soup -- 120

dinner://
steak quesida -- 520
fruit punch --150

snacks://
icecream -- 140
large cookie -- 170
baked apple -- 150
nutribar -- 120
strawberries -- 80
chocolate chips -- 100
toast -- 40
waffers -- 100

total: 1,980
-180 (walking exercise)
final total: 1, 800

I... had... a binge day? Yeah... a serious one. I've never disliked sweets, and I mean as a taste, until now.

3/7/2011

current weight: 145.2

breakfast://
egg salad sandwich -- 290

lunch://
tomato soup -- 90
1/2 rice cake -- 18

dinner://
steamed mixed vegetables w/ chicken -- 125
white rice -- 121
spring roll -- 100
chicken & rice soup -- 60
fortune cookie -- 35

snacks://
1/2 shake thing --  87

total: 926
burned calories: 262 on treadmill
final total: 664

Um... words cannot explain?

 

look at the calorie count. for a small value meal on a burger. the whopper value meal is 1200 calories...

3/6/2011 ---- just let me scream this... ONE FOURTY FOURR!

starting weight: 151.0
current weight: 144.8
goal weight: 110.0

oh, dreams, they do come true, oh yesss, yes, they really do... :D

anyway, here's my food journal for today. :x we're going to try to go without any sweets to start waning me off of them. they are a gateway crime; one and you're done. lesson learned.

breakfast://
full bowl of cereal -- 130

lunch://
lean cuisine -- 220

dinner://
280 -- turkey subway sandwich

snacks://
cookie -- 70
lots of candy -- 500 calories
1/2 icecream sandwich -- 70

total:1,270

ehh... at least i walked today. :)

Exercise /=/ Chores

When I hear the word exercise, I think of hard work and chores, something I just don't want to do. I have a horrible feeling with the word exercise, like spider. When I think spider, I think scary. That's why I don't think of it, I just have to do it... otherwise I'm gonna be all lumpy even if I manage to slim down.

3/5/2011 -- Saturday's So Sweeeet... like the food I'll be eating?

breakfast://
1/2 bowl of cereal -- 75

lunch://
tomato soup -- 90
toast -- 70
icecream sandwich -- 140

dinner://
chinese frozen dinner -- 205
two cookies -- 110


snacks://
rice cake -- 35
1/2 cookie choco chip -- 100
fortune cookie -- 30 ("cooperation will work better")
2 samoa cookies -- 140
large chocochip cookie -- 200
smoothie -- 115

total:1,310

exercise burned: 190 calories

total calories: 1,120 :s

meh. 36 minute walk for 2miles. i got sweaty! i'm soooooo out of shape. and damn cookies, leave me alone! i chew/spit the rest of that chocolate chip cookie... :( and ate more and moreee cookies. bleh. i used saturday as an excuse!

3/4/2011 --- Success is beautiful

starting weight: 151 lbs
current weight: 145.6!!
goal weight: 120 lbs

breakfast://
half bowl of cereal -- 60 cals (gave the rest to my kitty and puppy, they love milk)

lunch://
subway veggie delight -- 250 cals
lemonade --- 150 cals
3 chips -- 30 cals

dinner://
1/3rd lean cuisine -- 73 calories

snacks://
cookie dough -- 60
chocolate chips -- 90
cookie -- 200 cals

total: 813 cals

starting to get a little more active; i walked fast for 30 minutes and actually got a little sweaty.

3/3/2011 --- starting my progress with youtube~

breakfast://
bowl of cereal -- 150

lunch://
tomato soup -- 90

dinner://
sauteed veggies with steak -- 300
biscuit -- 300

snacks://
1/2 rice cake with nutella --  75
icecream -- 140

total:1,055

3/2/2011 -- blow holes and pie holes, gosh-darn-it

breakfast://
apple -- 100

lunch://
tuna salad on toast -- 210
carrots -- 50

dinner://
soup -- 60 cals

snacks://
4 homemade cookies -- 400? more?

total: >820

**sigh**

i had a cookie attack. at the time, they were delicious. i chewed and spit one a moment ago and they taste HORRIBLE. what the heck? darn you, cravings!

i don't know how well i'll do tomorrow, but i hope i can stop this craving sweets thing. geez louise. well, it's not louise's fault now is it?

Skinny Girl Diet

rules//
eat as many fruits and veggies as you want without counting calories
any calories over the limit must be burned off in cardio
exercise 5x a week, 30 minutes at least per session.

i'm so curious how much you can lose with this diet, and since it's the beginning of the month, it'll fit right in. hmmm...

i won't count apples, carrots, lettuce, broccoli, strawberries, or blueberries. banana's are loaded with calories though, so i'll probably count them. i'm not sure.

ideal diet for tomorrow would be an apple for breakfast(100, but isn't counted!)), piece of toast and salad with carrots for lunch(70, not counting veggies), and soup with a piece of toast for dinner(240). toast is really filling for me. i'm also gonna make an effort to do some arm exercises, leg exercises, abd. exercises and walk for 30 minutes.

3/1/2011 -- MARCH MADNESS!

Ok, woke up this morning scale said 146. Awesome! But it's not gonna stick because I totally said, "cheat day". Which is OK, I guess, but not really. Not gonna have dinner now b/c that would totally freak me out calorie wise. My crash diet ... has crashed.
On the flip side I got an awesome new hair-do. :DD

So, March 18th: 145lb, let my weight be there or be squared. :)


breakfast://
oatmeal -- 150

lunch://
subway sandwich -- 380
salad -- 100
cookie -- 210

snacks://
venti passion starbucks tea -- 130
Iced Lemon Pound CAKE!! -- 400 (it was good tho...)


I really do feel bloated now, like I've eaten too much, yet I've only had 1300 calories. This makes me happy! It means my stomach was shrinking, which I could tell because I ate 600 cals one day and I wasn't even hungry before bed. Yay!

My Goals

I made this goal sheet a few days  ago, when I was still 151. It's amazing how I'm beating it already -- but I'm going to assume it's strictly water weight, else wise I might get a little cocky!

March
Lose 1 lb by tuesday the 1st -- 150//146.8
Lose 2 lb by friday the 4th -- 149//
Lose 3 lb by monday the 7th -- 148//
Lose 4 lb by thursday the 10th -- 147//
Lose 5 lb by tuesday the 15th -- 146//
Lose 6 lb by friday the 18th -- 145//
Lose 7 lb by tuesday the 22nd -- 144//
Lose 8 lb by saturday 26th -- 143//
Lose 9 lb by monday 28th -- 142//
Lose 10 lb by thursday 31st  -- 141//

April
Lose 1 lb by monday the 4th -- 140
Lose 2 lb by thursday the 7th -- 139
Lose 3 lb by sunday the 10th -- 138
Lose 4 lb by thursday the 14th -- 137
Lose 5 lb by monday the 18th -- 136
Lose 6 lb by wednesday the 20th -- 135
Lose 7 lb by saturday the 23rd -- 134
Lose 8 lb by tuesday the 26th -- 133
Lose 9 lb by 29th -- 132

May
Lose 1 lb by monday the 2nd -- 131
Lose 2 lb by friday the 6th -- 130
Lose 3 lb by wednesday the 11th -- 129
Lose 4 lb by saturday the 14th -- 128
Lose 5 lb by tuesday the17th -- 127
Lose 6 lb by friday the 20th -- 126
Lose 7 lb by wednesday the 25th -- 125
Lose 8 lb by saturday the 28th -- 124
Lose 9 lb by tuesday the 31st -- 123

Will continue after I reach 123.

2/28/2011 -- more crashing, more smiles

current weight: 147.8
goal weight: 110
mini goal weight: 145

I may have a fasting day today. I'm slowly becoming obsessed all over again... but it takes a lot to say you have an eating "disorder"! Last night was bad for me, but I didn't take it out on food. Rather staying up all night battling the raw feeling of hunger!

I'm loving the scale; it has been going down quite a good amount. Most of it may be water weight and fluctuation, but still... I freakin' hate the 150's. I never want to be there again... but we shall see.

breakfast://
nutri bar -- 120

lunch://
oatmeal -- 150

dinner://
soup -- 70
toast -- 70
yogurt -- 56
cookie -- 65

snacks://
smoothie thing -- 100

total: 631

2/27/2011 --- apple and tuna worked for christian bale...

current weight: 149.6 <--- not 151!!! :D
mini goal weight: 145

breakfast://
oatmeal -- 175 cals

lunch://
leftover chinese
-1/2 cup mein fun -- 180
-1/2 cup white rice  -- 102 cals
- 1/3rd cup of milk -- 30 cals

dinner://
slice of toast - 70
6 baby carrots -- 30
snack://

total: 586 calories

so i read that christian bale lost like 62 lbs eating only an apple and a can of tuna every day. impressive, but i don't like tuna. it's a good balance of carbs/protein though... meh?

2/26/2011 -- more of a stinted diet

breakfast://
bread -- 70 calories

lunch://
1 apple -- 80 calories
oatmeal -- 150 calories

dinner://
chinese food, 650
*mein fun -- 350
*white rice -- 200
*broccoli with sauce -- 100

snack://
part of a smoothie -- 150

total: 1,100 calories


i'm kind of shaming on myself, because i put a lot on my plate and i didn't need to eat it all. i could have easily made it away from that meal with 400 cals, but on the flipside... i could have gone back for seconds like i was thinking. i <3 rice ;(

2/25/2011 -- crash diet

current weight: 151
mini goal weight: 145

i'm wondering about the whole negative calorie thing. is it true? i love apples... that would be a dream.

breakfast://
apple and a bottle of water -- 70

lunch://
toast and small cup of coffee -- 110

dinner://
steak and soup w/ salad and baked beans -- 280

snack://
3 baby carrots --15

total calories; 476

2/24/2011 -- MALL SHOPPING!!

Ok, so I went shopping and got size 13 pants as usual, they're a little loose the first day but after I wash them they shrink a size so whatever. I'm not even technically a size 11 because I have a muffin top, like they squeeze... but with size 13 they're really comfortable. I'm just really wishing I was a size 5 because that is my dream size right there!!

Anyway, when I go shopping my menu is all sorts of fudged up (like it isn't on normal days? Haha).


list of items i ate:
bowl of cereal -- 250
2 eggs -- 200
1 hashbrown -- 300
1 piece of toast -- 70
tall starbucks vanilla latte -- 190
tall starbucks shaken iced tea lemonade, passion -- 100
butter crossaint -- 310
lean cuisine -- 350
4 reduced fat oreos -- 180 ?
 glass of milk -- 160

total: 2,110
D: oh no. haha! eesh. i wanna go on a crash diet and see how much i can lose eating my absolute minumum. just a thought, i can't ever stay away from food long enough to actually make a dent... :<

2/23/2011
feeling a little fresher today, not so blah. i think apples are good. they keep me awake @_@. 

breakfast//:
bowl of cereal -- 250 calories (need to find a lower calorie cereal!)

lunch//:
apple -- 100
piece of toast -- 70

dinner//:
chicken and fries -- 500

snacks//:
banana -- 100

total: 1,020

2/22/2011

breakfast//:
bowl of cereal -- 280

lunch//:
bowl of cereal -- 250

dinner//:
Salad w/ chicken -- 300
yoghurt -- 190

snacks//:
2 oatmeal cookies -- 130
apple -- 60

total//: 1,210

I didn't record my meals the last couple days because I was in a super lethargic mood and didn't get on my laptop much. I should have though; I ate way too much yesterday and I should have embarrassed myself by writing it all down :\

2/19/2011 --- Laziness is Laziness...

breakfast//:
bowl of cereal -- 250
banana -- 100
orange juice -- 110

lunch//:
pringles -- 160
lean cuisine -- 350

dinner//:


snacks//:
carb smart popsicle - 150
cranberry juice -- 200
orange juice -- 110
3 oreos -- 135

2/18/2011 --- Sick But Resistant (Or Not?)

current weight: 150
goal weight: 110

I'm getting worse with my sickness. Like, I'm actually feeling it now instead of just coughing and sneezing. I probably need to drink more water. It's amazing how I can have like 400 calories in just one day through juices and milk, and I don't drink that much! Eesh. I have less of an apetite though... I hope that means no munching out of boredom.

breakfast//:
cup of orange juice -- 110 cals
banana -- 100 cals

lunch//:
lettuce salad (dry) -- 20  cals

cup of cranberry juice -- 120 cals 

lasagna -- 320 cals

dinner//:

snacks//:

pringles -- 150

carb smart icecream popsicle -- 120
fruit smoothie -- 320
apple -- 60

total//: 1,320 cals

Healthy food!

Got some salad and fruit recently. The only thing with vegetation is that it dies quickly; salad is good for like a week and ditto for strawberries. Watermelon can last a while with apples, but for the weekend we are going vegan! W00p! I'm thinkin' fruit for breakfast, salad for lunch, and lean cuisine for dinner.

We have an enemy amongst us, however... oreos, pie, icecream and popsicles.

2/17/2011 --- Day 2 of Not Missing A Thing!

current weight: 148.8
goal weight: 110

i'm sick so my parents want me to drink orange juice often. i'm kind of not so against that even though it has the caloric equivalency to coke, it has special healing powers sometimes.

breakfast//:
bowl of cereal -- 200
12oz cup of orange juice -- 165
cup of coffee -- 70

lunch//:
chicken rice soup -- 170
banana -- 120

dinner//:
1/2 turkey sandwich -- 180
small bowl of cereal -- 150
pizza -- 340

snacks//:
3 olives -- 25
cheesestick -- 60
chocolate chip cookie -- 100
cranberry juice -- 200

total//: 1,780

2/16/2011 --- Day 1 of Whatever Works.

Starting weight: 149 lbs
Goal weight: 110 lbs

breakfast//::
bowl of cereal -- 270 cals
coffee w/ splenda and creamer -- 70 cals

lunch//::
bowl of chicken and rice soup -- 170 cals

dinner//::
lean cuisine dinner -- 300 cals ;(
cup of orange juice -- 110 cals

snacks//::
6 olives -- 50 cals

total//:: 920 calories 

Okay, we're starting this journal for a reason. I don't care if I screw up a day, I'm going to record it. You don't gain weight by eating nothing; that's just not how it happens. Now my name really is Ana, and I know in a lot of places that stands for Anorexic -- I am NOT. I am just trying new things and seeing what works.

Even if my diet is very erratic, just because I'm angry at good food for making me fat doesn't make me anorexic. In fact, it takes a lot of picking and self hate and loathing. It's a mental disorder. I love food, but I hate it -- I know that. And... it is my body, I'm just using it as a ghuinea pig for now. I'm young, it'll bounce back, I never stick to anything too severe for long anyways.

Let's make this a learning experience for both parties, alright? :D